Midweek Piss

This morning, I came to work with a foul mood…so much for a good start to the working week on a Monday and Tuesday…well, the mood worsen as Tuesday passed…

No one was around but me alone at work…that’s totally fine with me as I wasn’t expecting much work…there is but I can handle it….juz a few classes here and there…the timing was staggered so it’s not a mad rush for me…then came the boss asking for invoices and receipts and bills…that got me caught in a whirlwind…see, I don’t do the accounting….it’s under my colleague’s purview and he’s on leave for like 3 days straight…so I told myself…stay calm, stay collected, breathe and find the things needed…naturally I got lil panicky as I’m rather unfamiliar…files began to fly out of cupboards, pages of bills and invoices were flipped furiously…God I can do this…

It’s not even 15 minutes and my boss came barking again…fucking shit I say!~ no choice I gotta ring up my colleague…it wasn’t much of a help I must say…God knows how much I’ve swore under my breath!~ told the boss I couldn’t get the things she wanted and there goes a barrage of vocal recitation to my face…well, I tried to do the left-ear-in-right-ear-out but as you know, some things juz stayed in and refuse to budge…argh!~ Fuck!~ It’s so annoying, irritating, disappointing and I was really feeling awful. I hate to be reprimanded. Furthermore, here I am taking the rap for another person’s doings. Well that’s said and done, I returned to work with a heavy heart. Really felt lousy.

Got me some free time and took a short break. Read my emails and there it is. An email addressed to me and my colleague from the boss. So acidic, so caustic, so penetratingly sharp and so humiliating!!! I shall not go into finer details of the email but I can say 85% of it should not be aimed at me. I did my job. I get things done on time, on the dot and as perfectly as I could. I’ve been doing a proper job and I think I so don’t deserve the harsh words. Boss told me of some things she would wanna see in the labs be it changes, repairs or maintenance. Those came under direct supervision of my colleague. I felt bad as we both are working together so I try my best to help around as far as I possibly could. I constantly reminded him of the things needed to be done but he juz sits on the job. I don’t know what he did all day. Due to his attitude, I think it’s somehow affecting my work performance and certainly I never wish to give a crappy work. It’s like giving me a bad name indirectly urgh!~ ANJENG!~

Sorry if I’m sounding like I’m digging up the past issues but these past issues are the ones that have been dragging me down. I don’t mean to ‘ungkit’ but too bad ah, I’m not given any choice. So whatever ah. I’m gonna be Mother Kali at work.

This morning, he came in….I purposedly busied myself…I threw away all the broken stools…mind you there’s a lot! I threw out many papers…Don’t really care if it’s important or not…he asked what am I doing…can u believe that?! I reminded him graciously that boss noted the labs were messy so I’m cleaning up…on a massive scale of coz! He said can do later and told me to go breakfast with him. HALO!~ I’m super pissed and stressed and here he is asking me to eat?! And there are 3 classes going on simultaneously…how can I juz leave to eat? What if I’m needed? Dunno why some people juz cannot think logically? It’s such a simple thing to understand and yet…sigh…

Alright, told myself not to take it too seriously…I’m gonna breathe and try to smile…I swear only God knows what inside my heart….

This Friday morning, I plan to head to the cemetery…need to see a long gone loved one…then go for prayers and head to Tampines…gonna pass some things to my grandmother…I haven’t seen her in like 2 weeks already…after that, heading to GIANT IMM to meet isham and amat to buy things for the BBQ on Saturday. Honestly, I’m not looking forward to it with all these stupid work things bothering my mind. So I do hope the sun, sand and sea and the wind of course, will do me some good.

Ok I guess that’s about all the complaints I have for the mid week…did I mention before that I don’t like Wednesdays? Hmmmm…think I did…smile peeps!~