After 2 days away on a course, I came back to work today. Oh the course was really really good...it's by Mark Zalkin from Denver, Colorado...it's on 'MANAGING DIFFICULT PEOPLE!'....i learnt so many things in that 2 days...on anger, on people's characters, on the many ways to deal with others etc...truly splendid....
Ok nvm abt that....honestly, i came to work with such a heavy heart and i was really dragging my feet...the night before, my head was constantly thinking of work...wat i'll be doing for the day, wat to complete and wat to expect...juz thinking of those can make my head spin...it hurts u noe...
How can my head not hurt? I receive smses on saturday nights and sunday evenings and even on week nights that they wanna do pracs the next working day...i went like hello!~ gimme a break for god's sake....i'm not on standby 24/7...i need my peace of mind and away from work....
Today was truly exhausting...i made a huge mistake by entering the staff room...one after another shouted out my name...shoving stacks of papers into my hands requesting for pracs...i dun mind if they are doing it sometime later next week but it's all for this week...i almost went crazy trying to deal with it...with the upcoming prac mock exams, prelim pracs exams and SPA exams and O levels....i seriously can break down....worse still, the colleague's not helping....half of the day I dunno where he is...i'm running the 5 labs physically single handedly...thk god i have 2 very reliable assistants who at least able to lighten my load juz by a bit....today saw me running up & down...darting into the 5 labs...in and out....up and down....draining i tell u....
And today, i have a new jobscope....thks to my boss....i have to mark homework and quizzes....how great is tat!...imagine i have to mark 15 people's worth of workload....i'm really at my neck with work...gosh!~
And i gave tuition half-heartedly...coz i almost dozed off...my head was spinning, my eyes heavy, my body tired....still, i drag myself to the gym, hoping a lil work-out might help to ease the stress...guess wat it didn't....i came back and still thinking of work...argh!~ Fuck!~
Sometimes, i wish i can juz drop everything and walk away....i'm tired of shouldering every burden on my shoulders...i'm sick of responsibilities....for now at least....think i need a lil break to recharge my worn out batteries....but i can't afford to quit and find me a new job....i'm so tied down...i'm sick i'm tired i'm stress i'm exhausted i'm drained out...i'm going blank....
I need time to heal...i need space to breathe....time for a sabbatical...time to be all alone for myself...by myself....find me new strength....for me...for my friends too...
Ok nvm abt that....honestly, i came to work with such a heavy heart and i was really dragging my feet...the night before, my head was constantly thinking of work...wat i'll be doing for the day, wat to complete and wat to expect...juz thinking of those can make my head spin...it hurts u noe...
How can my head not hurt? I receive smses on saturday nights and sunday evenings and even on week nights that they wanna do pracs the next working day...i went like hello!~ gimme a break for god's sake....i'm not on standby 24/7...i need my peace of mind and away from work....
Today was truly exhausting...i made a huge mistake by entering the staff room...one after another shouted out my name...shoving stacks of papers into my hands requesting for pracs...i dun mind if they are doing it sometime later next week but it's all for this week...i almost went crazy trying to deal with it...with the upcoming prac mock exams, prelim pracs exams and SPA exams and O levels....i seriously can break down....worse still, the colleague's not helping....half of the day I dunno where he is...i'm running the 5 labs physically single handedly...thk god i have 2 very reliable assistants who at least able to lighten my load juz by a bit....today saw me running up & down...darting into the 5 labs...in and out....up and down....draining i tell u....
And today, i have a new jobscope....thks to my boss....i have to mark homework and quizzes....how great is tat!...imagine i have to mark 15 people's worth of workload....i'm really at my neck with work...gosh!~
And i gave tuition half-heartedly...coz i almost dozed off...my head was spinning, my eyes heavy, my body tired....still, i drag myself to the gym, hoping a lil work-out might help to ease the stress...guess wat it didn't....i came back and still thinking of work...argh!~ Fuck!~
Sometimes, i wish i can juz drop everything and walk away....i'm tired of shouldering every burden on my shoulders...i'm sick of responsibilities....for now at least....think i need a lil break to recharge my worn out batteries....but i can't afford to quit and find me a new job....i'm so tied down...i'm sick i'm tired i'm stress i'm exhausted i'm drained out...i'm going blank....
I need time to heal...i need space to breathe....time for a sabbatical...time to be all alone for myself...by myself....find me new strength....for me...for my friends too...
4 comments:
Oh my God!!! Who do they think you are? Personal slaves? Anyway, hang on.. You can transfer out after 3 years.
a'ah!!! bleh gila kejap aku siol...then now semua rushing nak complete practicals...zzzzz pengsan jugak aku satu hari nnt -_-"
Bagus jugak kau pengsan, then they'll know kau bukan dorangnye kuli batak. Anyway, write down every single thing u did on ur work review, yeap, including the markings and stuffs.
Pening kadang2 kalau fikirkan balik...nak jugak aku pengsan skali skala...hehe ya im so gonna note down every single thing i did ah in the work review...tapi jgn haraplah aku dpt A lagi for next yr PB sigh...
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